Last week God asked me:“How’s Life”
We had a great conversation and
I decided to have it once in a week.
So yesterday I brought my lunch,my book and a picnic matt to the
footy field and sat under the shade.
Watching the street, and the
blue broad sky of Australia.
In that moment, I was really
looking forward to go back to Malaysia in October.
I barely remember how was the sky in Malaysia looks like.
Was it this high? Was it this blue?
I was so anticipating for this return solely
because I knew I will be leaving as well.
The only reason I love my country is because
my family and friends are there.
And that’s the only reason I miss my country.
I’m not sure when the time is here that
I have to go back for ever, at the end of my mad travels.
Will I still feel eager? Will I still feel hope?
Or I will be as miserable as I was leaving New Zealand 3 months ago?
Because I knew I’ll never have that life again once I left.
I’ll only know it when the time is really here.
One of the things that I kept of New Zealand,
The Maori Fish Hook symbol Amethyst.
While sitting on the grass, meditating and reading,
I could also see and listen to a lot of happenings
across the street of Halls Creek.
Tourists that are passingby in their caravans,
Angry aboriginal teenagers fighting in front of the store,
Drunken man trying to kill himself with car crash,
Hyperactive kids running around, stealing stuffs, and eating grass,shoes, rigs and dirts.
I have to set my foot on top of my thongs so that
the kids wouldn’t have a chance to steal my thongs.
2 months of living in this place and the receptionist new job
made me recognizable and acknowledged by the local people,
however outsiders are outsiders, we are never part of them.
This is their town and they are easily pissed off.
For the aboriginals, every is Sunday.When you live your whole life like this,
the only emotions that left are - ANGER and EMPTINESS
Their life is without goal, without hope,so they are angry.
I can’t do anything about that, not even in my ability.
So I said to God,
I’m grateful that I’m what I’m now.